Anorexia: It’s Never Too Early To Stop

Written by Lilly Susanna

I developed anorexia… gradually and secretly. But after about 8 months, I was so sick of it… that I found myself lying on an open windowsill, crying my eyes out, telling myself that I’d lost everything.

I was 11 kg underweight (with heavy bones). The most amazing boy in the world said he would support me, but the love was gone. I could barely carry my 4 kg guitar, and my songs were only about Anorexia.

So I took a plunge. I decided to eat “normally” again, after visiting a nutritionist.

It took a few weeks of lying and cheating… but then something went wrong. I was so hungry, I would eat all day. I was so, so hungry all the time. My weight shot up… but I was like: it’s okay. I need to gain weight anyway.

But then my weight went up past my ‘goal weight’ (which was still a few kilograms underweight anyway)…

It’s a very long story, and I can’t recount all of it.

But I learned one thing: If this happens EVER happens, don’t purge (make yourself throw up/ take laxatives)!

Random fact, but it’s saved my life.

Proof: at 43 kg I got stares and shocked looks and people were afraid to touch me. At a lot more… I get roses and flowers and compliments and offers…

And I’m wittering on, but it’s nice to share your story with someone: we all deserve to.